Sunday 18 May 2014

by the way

oh but by the way I spent three days incommunicado due to 1 construction drawing of deck steps and balustrade....still not as detailed as I would have liked but at least I drew it somehow (don't ever ask me to do it again!!)

I have up loaded all the power points and digital landscape stuff from last year onto a pen drive for tomorrow, weirdly I have no clue how I made a film...with music and sound effects!! Perhaps I have brain like a goldfish....

yeahhhhh!!


Horahhh I finally found my groove...my concept has come together....the 1:1000 research that was in my head suddenly appeared obvious on paper...I am so relieved..it was all in there...I just had a difficult time expressing it....

It is the night before the final pin up...I have thanked those that have helped me complete this four years and will see those that have joined me on the journey tomorrow...good luck to you all, you delightful people...long may we remain friends... xx

Wednesday 14 May 2014

negative..or not

Oh I hate leaving a negative post (previous one)...so I shall end on a positive one before I go to bed...eyes sore and need the sleep monster to make me feel alive again rather than zombiefied!!

I just read Adele Ford's blog from a couple of years ago...she reminded me of me...always trying her best...cheered me up..lovely lady

I have been doing the maintenance schedule and plant pricing since arriving home at 7pm after work with my eyes drooping! night night....computer is my best friend at the moment... sadly no conversation!! lol

oh dear... :(

Due to the fact that I am still working at the same time as doing this degree...(and everyone knows teachers do not just do the hours they are paid for but much much more)....I had an observation last Wednesday, which took up a huge amount of prep time, feedback today, again took up my time... but all I could think of was "my construction drawings are not being done...." :(
I think I have run out of time...nothing I can do...kids and a mortgage have finally come before a degree that was supposed to be part-time.....I am sad....I can't pull this out of the bag, I am so tired from going to bed at 1.30am trying to do my pond section and getting up for work...

I just don't think it is possible to do this course with a responsible part-time job, a family and burning ambition to be the best you can be.....grrrrr!  I want to be positive but I really think students need to be proficient in AutoCAD before they start the course to have a much less stressful time. It's too late for me to learn...we only have 5 days left!! lol (hysterically).

 
Here is the amazing fencing I want in my park, I can't draw it though...
 
 

Saturday 10 May 2014

I forgot, it's still all about the comedy

 
Exhaustion has set in....and I return to my default setting.....
 
 

Having invited all my friends and family that I have totally ignored for the last 9 months to Hadlow Open Day on the 24th May, I thought they could have a bit of fun spotting themselves in some of my pictures.....Made me laugh and lets face it...after the last few weeks of NO sense of humour, I needed to crack a smile. I had forgotten my catch phrase: "it's all about the comedy" and replaced it with "it's all about the piece of paper"....hopefully soon I will have that paper...whatever mark it may have, obviously I have tried my best to reach that illusive mark but I suppose that is subjective. After that, the real hard work starts...using the skills we have acquired, finding work and returning to normal life with a vengeance!

I have to say, it's been an experience! I look forward to the next chapter with all my, what will be life long, 'designer friends' (I picked them up in a boutique in Greenwich don't you know'), what shall we all do next?